December 15th, 2009: Exotropia Strabismus & Inner Ear Disorder
I was born with Bilateral Alternating Exotropia Strabismus. It's where either eye can wander off to the side when I relax the eye muscle. It's bilateral because both eyes do it, but it's alternating, meaning only one eye at a time. Technically, it's not a lazy eye since I can actually control this. A lazy eye can sometimes lose it's sight and die off, which in my case won't happen. Sometimes I have less control when I'm really tired, watching tv or on the computer. Other times I let an eye wander on purpose so I can see better at a far distance, or to freak people out. My parents gave me an eye patch when I was little to cover my good eye, but since even that eye wandered I was scared I'd lose total control over it. Because both eyes weren't constantly used throughout my life, I have poor depth perception. And, since my eye muscles are weak it's caused me to have an inner ear disorder, which has lead to having poor balance and dizzy spells throughout my life. With an inner ear disorder, just about anything can cause me to have a dizzy spell, severe episodes of vertigo, and extreme car and motion sickness. I'm not exactly sure which came first, the inner ear disorder or my Exotropia Strabismus, but I know they relate somehow. It doesn't bother me so much now that I see the cause of my ailments because I can help prevent them. And, since neither my optometrist nor I have ever met anyone else with this condition, I feel pretty special. November 1st, 2009: Bangs What's with the "hair parted on the side of your head with bangs across your face" look? Teens with comb-overs? Bangs weren't meant to lay completely horizontal across the face, yet I see young people sporting this look. Are they trying to be dark, mysterious, or even dare I say, emo? The cashier the other day had to tilt her head to see what she was doing. It's funny because years ago I got my hair dyed and the lady ran out of hair dye removal for my forehead. She didn't say anything hoping I didn't notice and just combed my hair across my face just like the teens I see now. I looked ridiculous! I heard her laughing as I left. That was the last time I went to her! Maybe I started this trend, which didn't catch on until years later. October 7th, 2009: Old-Fashioned Email With all the twittering, texting, instant messaging and blogging, does anyone ever use good old-fashioned email these days? Wow. Email, good old-fashioned!? That can't be... I remember back in my day we had large telephones connected to the wall. We didn't know who was calling until we picked it up, and unless we had an answering machine we would likely miss calls and not know about them. If you wanted to share your photos you would have to go get them developed and then mail them with a hand written letter to someone. If we wanted to call our parents to tell them we'll be late, we had to find a pay phone or walk to the nearest friends house and ask to borrow their phone. Homework essays were written out, not typed and printed. If you wanted to watch a music video you would have to catch it on MTV, and not everyone had cable. MTV was just about music videos, cable channels were for movies, cartoons were just for children, and regular tv shows were only on basic television. Famous movie stars didn't star on regular tv shows, only people trying to get into movies. We had to rewind vhs movies after watching them and rewind cassette tapes after listening to them. If we wanted free music we had to either turn on the radio or sing. If we wanted to rant about our daily life, we would have to write it in our diary or call up a friend and rant on the phone. If we wanted to know the weather, get the daily news, find a job or check out what movies were playing this weekend, we had to... brace yourself... read a printed newspaper. We relied on a TV Guide to know what shows were on, and that was the only purpose for a TV Guide. If we wanted driving directions we had to figure it out for ourselves using a map. Video game controllers had cords attached to their consoles. Some controllers still had joysticks and a button. Not all games saved your game scores. If you got stuck in a game you had to ask your friend for help or refer to the 8-page manual that came with the game. If you played multi-player you had to be in the same room as the other players and you had to wait your turn. Arcade games were only a quarter, and so were quarter machines. Shopping was only available in an actual store. To sell something, we had a garage sale or listed it in the recycler. So, to say Email is good old-fashioned, it just goes to show you how fast technology is evolving. October 4th, 2009: Love is Blind Love, like any emotion, is a chemical reaction in the brain. When you see, hear, or smell your potential mate, endorphins are released in your brain to cause a feeling of euphoria in hopes that you will not only stay with them long enough to reproduce, but to ensure you build a safe and healthy environment with them for your offspring. Infatuation is merely the first onset stages of this chemical reaction in the brain, which is very intense in order to create the physical attraction or bond between two people. Since love creates endorphins to be released in the brain, like many drugs and chemicals, love can be addicting. There are several different reasons that would cause this feeling of love or bond to break; financial stress, incompatibility, disinterest, or the attraction of another potential mate, just to name a few. Our primitive part of our human brain is what creates these feelings and emotions, and like love they all play a part in trying to get our species to reproduce and survive. For example, jealousy causes us to dislike our mate being taken away by another. We are jealous of others when they have more money or are better looking because it means we have a lesser chance at catching a good mate. We hate those that threaten our lifestyle. Anger causes us to act upon unwanted situations that might harm our plans to reproduce and keep a safe environment for our mate and offspring. Fear protects us from harm. Sadness from the loss of a mate causes us to act upon the situation and try to quickly get that mate back or get another mate. The list goes on and on. This information is well known to many, yet I still see people act unreasonable based on their emotions and feelings that go against better judgement. Sometimes it's good to go with your emotions, but other times it overshadows the logical side of things. The promitive brain winds up controlling the situation in it's favor to ensure we survive and reproduce when usually the person's goals in life is something different. I think there are many people who need a wake up call so they can break free from the hold their primitive brain has on them. Then they will see the bigger picture in their life and achieve the best emotion of all - happiness. September 28th, 2009: Nocturnal Wonderland I went to Nocturnal this weekend. Stupid idea for someone who can't stand on their feet long. I was dying! By the time I got home, 8 hours later, my feet and legs felt like they went through a wood chipper. I always say no, so they were shocked when I agreed to go. Why did I go? I guess I wanted to prove to everyone before I hit 30 that I'm bad ass. I suppose bringing a butt cushion to sit on wasn't very bad ass, but it helped a ton! Best idea I ever had! The music was pretty good considering I'm not a fan of dance music. The visuals were insane. There were so many different light displays, including a firework show every hour, and performers on stilts. John, who used to be a regular at these kinds of events, was dressed up crazy and gave some pretty awesome light shows to people. If it wasn't for my aching feet I think I would have had a much better time. Would I go again? No. I doubt I'll be able to handle it again. But, I can at least now say I went to an all-night rave. September 4th, 2009: Merck Much like the cigarette companies, the pharmaceutical giant, Merck, is in denial of the accusations made against them regarding their vaccines containing eight times the lethal dose of mercury in the form of thimerosal and that it is harming our children. It's blatantly obvious that children who's immune systems can't handle large amounts of mercury injected into their bloodstreams are getting autism, Asperger's syndrome, ADHD, and other mind crippling diseases affecting social and motor skills shortly after getting their vaccines. Yet, Merck and the FDA do nothing. Several studies have been done time and again proving that there is a link between vaccines and autism. There are hundreds of thousands of cases proving just that and yet all these cases and the data are completely disregarded by Merck. In the past doctors and scientists have exchanged their devastating data for high paying jobs in the corporation and agreed to write documents saying that there is no link after all. Because of this, much of the studies had ceased for years until recently. I'm sure there are billions of dollars at stake if they remove the thimerosal from the vaccines, which has been used since the 1950's, but isn't the price to pay worth the lives of our children? I guess not. I apologize for rambling, but I just couldn't sleep tonight because this was on my mind. I did a report on this several years ago back when everyone concluded there was no link between vaccines and autism. A few years later my cousin's son became autistic. A few years after that I built an autism website for a client of mine. Today, I find that the issue is back with a vengeance in the media and the public is fighting for justice. But, how much longer will we have to wait for this to stop? August 30th, 2009: Modest Mouse I saw Modest Mouse this weekend. Most bands play their recorded music much differently live. However, Modest Mouse played their songs with different instruments than usual and they changed their choruses and music around to the point where I barely recognized some of my beloved songs. Then they reduced one of my favorite songs from five minutes down to one minute. They also didn't play their most popular songs like Float On. The first time I saw them live they played all their popular songs just like they were recorded, of course this was ages ago. At first I was disappointed by these things, but then realized they were just being great musicians and not cookie cutter radio bands doing what everyone wants them to do. The first time I had heard them on the radio I had this feeling of dread, that they would no longer be themselves, but what the audience and their publicist wanted. I guess I was wrong. I always appreciated them, now I see them in a whole new light. August 20th, 2009: Exploding Head Syndrome Since I was a kid I've always had strange episodes while trying to fall asleep. I'd be awaken by a very loud sound similar to a snap, bang or zap coming from inside my head. You see, I also had times where I would have sudden feelings of falling through the bed or having my body jolt me awake. Those are called Hypnic Jerks. However, I had to dig deep to figure out what the loud bang in my head was all about. Then I found it. The actual name for it is... brace yourself, Exploding Head Syndrome. That's right. Exploding Head Syndrome. There's no adverse affects, pain or discomfort in any way aside from being awaken by a loud zap from inside your head. Why the horrific name? I have no clue. I didn't think I'd ever be able to sleep again after hearing that! However, I could rest assure knowing that Exploding Head Syndrome is harmless. Weird, huh? July 13th, 2009: Death of a Kitten I ran over a kitty last night. A mother cat and her litter were scurrying across a large dark road where the posted limit was 45. I slowed down, but a kitty who just crossed the path of my car saw my headlights and tried to run back at the last second. I heard a loud thump-thump under my right tires and felt kind of bad for the kitty. It was so ironic because just as I was leaving my parents house I saw a cat under a car staring at me driving away. I wondered how it would be if that cat were to run under my tire and if I would have felt bad about it or not. July 1st, 2009: Premonition of a Visitor The past couple of days I had been running into people I either don't see often, or hadn't heard from in ages. Three cousins, two friends and my neighbor. So, when I was thinking about visiting my parents I got the strong notion there was someone at their house that I hadn't seen in ages. I didn't really feel like visiting, but I didn't want to miss out if they had company over. On my way I wondered who it could be. I got there to find my parents did had company. It was some friends of the family who moved out of state and I hadn't seen in over a year. Crazy. June 22nd, 2009: Giraffes The other day I was driving home and was thinking about making a children's book and having the main character be a giraffe. Then I went to visit my cousin and she brought up in conversation a children's book she wanted to write several years ago about a giraffe. She also had a number of things with giraffe animal print on them like her broom. She also showed me her baby son's dresser, which had a plush giraffe sitting on it. Then when I visited my parents house I saw my nephews dresser, which had the exact same plush giraffe on it as my cousin's. My nephew, ironically was wearing an outfit with a giraffe on it and in his cradle was his giraffe blanky. Later that evening at home I came across an invitation with a giraffe on it, a zoo giraffe photo of mine and saw a few giraffes online. The following day my boss at work said he was going to be in late the next day because he had to read a book to his son's class about a giraffe that can't dance. Is this a sign or just a coincidence? May 4th, 2009: Potty Games I finished this Potty Games Word Searches notebook today. I found there were dozens of misspelled words such as "museam", "underware", and "gerble". One page was missing a word in its puzzle, one puzzle missing a letter and another was really screwed up. It had a new set of words in its list, but the puzzle itself was from a previous page. Considering how cute the book looks, with its spiral bound hardcover in the shape of a toilet, I'm really shocked how many mistakes were completely overlooked when this book was printed. January 10th, 2009: Car Collision I got into a four-car accident yesterday. The guy in front of me slammed his brakes and so did I, just in time to not hit him. However the truck behind me slammed right into me and so on causing a chain reaction of accidents. My car was sandwiched, but is still driveable with the front and back bumpers all busted up. It's ironic that shortly before the accident I gave my coworker a ride and he mentioned that I'm the only one he knows that drives with my hands at 10 and 2 on the wheel. It sucks that I drove all that way to Whittier just to get hit right outside John's house. Also, shortly before leaving work I put a small note pad and pen in my purse thinking I should always have something like that handy. Boy was I right! Having to get all the information of three different drivers was a pain, but I was prepared. January 5th, 2009: T's Mini-Mart It turns out that I currently live a block away from the old liquor store my parents owned back in the 80's. The new owners never changed the name so I spotted it right away. Aside from the arcade games being replaced by liquor bottles, it hadn't changed a bit. I practicly grew up there, spending half my days hanging around the candy isle and playing arcade games like Centipede, Donkey Kong Jr. and Super Mario Bros. Reality sunk in when I saw Gummi LifeSavers in the candy isle. They didn't even exist back then. Instead, we had Boston Baked Beans, Lemon Heads, and Hot Tamales. We had a jar of pickled pigs feet on the counter along with hot dogs and tamales for sale. We also sold Garbage Pail Kids cards. I bought some lemon heads. The tender was surprised to hear that the store was named after my mom. My parents sold the store shortly after we got robbed. It was definitely a trip back in time when I visited the place. I'll probably stop there again sometime. January 4th, 2009: Wicked I saw Wicked at the Pantages Theater in Hollywood this weekend. The tickets were pricey and the place was packed, but it was awesome!! They put a ton of work into it. Also, I wonder how much pride one must feel having people walk on their name written in a star on Hollywood Bouelvard. You can guarantee your name will either be in front of a porn shop or a bong shop. December 3rd, 2008: Don't go to Utah My sister, her boyfriend and their 5 month old son drove up to Utah to visit some relatives not knowing how dry the state is. They took several bottles of various types of alcohol in the bed of their truck as gifts for his relatives. Once they reached Utah they were pulled over by a cop and they took all their alcohol! Then they gave him a $500 ticket because it's illegal to bring alcohol into the state of Utah. They wanted to take his truck too, but they begged the cop not to because they didn't want to be left in the middle of nowhere at freezing temperatures with a 5 month old baby, especially when they're used to sunny California. The cop agreed and let them keep the truck. Apparently alcohol is high priced in Utah and there are strict regulations on alcohol. The alcohol content is half the percent of alcohol than in other states and the liquor stores there are state owned. However, it is legal for a 13 year old to own and carry a handgun. November 26th, 2008: I *heart* Kevin I moved my new mattress into the small room to turn it into my new bedroom. It was very comfy unlike my old mattress. After I laid down to rest I turned over on my side to find something glowing on the wall. It was illuminating on its own, so it freaked me out! I wondered if a murder had taken place and it was the residue left from the stuff detectives use to make bloodstains glow after they've been scrubbed clean. I got closer and saw something written on the wall. It said, "I *heart* Kevin" in glow-in-the-dark paint, probably written by some girl who lived there before me. Since that room only got one coat of paint before I moved in, the glow-in-the-dark paint shines through it. Now I'm stuck with "I *heart* Kevin" next to my bed. November 5th, 2008: Discrimination I was greatly disappointed, but not surprised that Proposition 8, which will ban gay marriage, had passed. I was shocked, however to find that many close people I know wanted to ban gay marriage. I was taken back by how disgusted they felt toward gay people and how ignorant they were to the fact they were taking away human rights from people based on discrimination. When I heard the news this morning I wanted to cry, yet at the same time I felt like it was just the beginning of a long battle to come in America. I know America is not ready to allow same sex couples to get married and I don't think America is really ready for an African American president either, but neither were they when other historical movements took place and changed our nation. They weren't ready when women got the right to vote nor were they ready when African Americans were freed from slavery. Sometimes change has to come regardless of our petty differences and narrowminded opinions, and I hope it comes soon. October 5th, 2008: E For All I went to the E For All gamers convention with John this weekend. We got to see people compete and fail against Fatality, a world famous first person shooter gamer. Each person got to spin a wheel to choose a handicap that Fatality had to go by. One spin made him play against two other people while having his screen covered except for a small round hole in the center where his gun was pointing. Needless to say, even with such difficult challenges, he kicked their asses in no time. Afterwards they set up the new RockBand on stage and some girl in her early 20's dressed up as Princess Peach went up there to sing on the mic. She failed about a minute into it and had a fit, dropped the mic and stormed off stage. It looked as though she was going to cry so management tried to coax her back on stage, but she just walked off. Then John got to go up on stage and play guitar. I've never seen him play on expert and get less than 95% before, but this was a song he didn't know, on a new guitar controller with stiff buttons and there was a delay on the big screen they had, so he wound up not doing so good. He started to whine about it afterwards so I called him Princess Peach. September 11th, 2008: Plantar Fasciitis I got a prescription today for new custom arches for my feet to help reduce the painful symptoms of my plantar fasciitis, a common foot disorder. My podiatrist also recommended I stretch my achilles tendon daily to make them more flexible. Hopefully this will ease my flat aching feet and prevent any heel spurs from forming in the future. August 24th, 2008: My Cactus Died Today, my cactus died. A cactus was the only living thing I could think of that I couldn't kill and when I saw him at the store I felt I had to buy him. He was so adorable and I had planned on making him a hat and a mustache and giving him a name. Instead, I came home today and found him leaning over about to break completely in half, with his base cracked and leaking fluid. I tried saving my prickly friend to no avail. I buried him in the trash. August 5th, 2008: Earthquake I finally glued the feet back on my ceramic Elvis frog that broke during the earthquake last Tuesday. I was at work when the quake hit and found that nearly every trinket in my condo fell over, yet only one item broke. Even my delicate glass water bird did not break. Anything standing upright was found on its side, and my bathroom cabinet was found wide open with all my toiletries in the sink. It was the strongest I've ever experienced. June 30th, 2008: Painting Peanut's Room I painted my sister's new baby's room with jungle grass, blue fluffy clouds and big bonzai trees, wrapping all the way around the room. We added animal wall stickers. It took me 6 hours to paint and I didn't get home until 4am. My feet and arms were killing me! It was my very first time painting, let alone a whole room, so I wasn't prepared for the work involved. After that I decided to take a Saturday painting class. I hate waking early on Saturdays, but I've been wanting to take a painting class for years. I sure hope I can finally learn to add color to my artwork. April 2nd, 2008: Funny Drive-Thru Story I was in the drive thru at McDonald's and I got three important phone calls on my cell. Afterward, I went back to her apartment to find parking, when I realized in the midst of everything that I forgot the food. I guess I was so distracted with the phone calls that I paid and left without stopping at the second window. I was too embarrassed to go back, but they had my money and there wasn't another one nearby. So, I reluctantly drove all the way back to McDonald's and got in the drive thru lane. I wasn't sure what to say. At first I thought I should tell them the truth, that I forgot the food, but I didn't want to look stupid. Then I figured I could act like I was just driving around waiting for the food to be ready, but that would make me look like an ass. So, I told them that my car was about to stall and I had to drive it around the block. They bought it. Once I got to the food window I put the car in park and started hitting the gas as I told them my lame ass story. "Yeah, I just placed an order and then my car was going to stall on me, so I drove it around the block and came back. Is my food ready now?" I felt like a total moron. "Oh, I see," she said so seriously and with great concern, "I saw you drive by and so I put the food away. Let me go ahead and put it together for you right now!" I started hitting the gas some more while in park to prove that I wasn't making it up. She seemed so concerned for me and my car, which by the way, is in great condition and only a few years old, that she scurried around, handed me my order and I was on my way. March 31st, 2008: My Sister's Pseudotumorcerebri My sister just had her third operation, this time to remove the magnetic device in her head and the tube in her abdomen because it got badly infected. She was also having contractions due to dehydration, which complicated the process, but the nurses got them to stop. I should mention she's pregnant and in her second trimester. The device was supposed to put an end to her severe migraines and double vision caused by her Pseudotumorcerebri, which could ultimately leave her blind if it continues. It's a condition where spinal fluid is getting backed up in her brain, causing tumor-like symptoms without a tumor. A magnetic device was inserted in her brain to pump spinal fluid down a thin tube into her abdomen where it is then digested. She was released from the hospital and sent home with a nurse to show her how to tend to her antibiotic medication that's fed through a tube and straight into her bloodstream. She has to be careful and not be aruond anyone who's sick because she's ver suseptible to germs with her weak immune system. After two weeks she should be fine, but her severe migraines will return. She will likely have to wait until the baby is born before they can reinsert the device in her head. February 2nd, 2008: I Was Screwing All Night! A few weeks ago I went out and bought a desk since I was using a tiny microwave stand. The desk I got is very functional and looks great with a lot of handy desk space for my homework and art projects. However, it was very heavy and needed to be put together. I wanted to feel independent so I dragged it into my apartment and put it together with the manual screwdriver that came in the box. Little did I know, when it comes with its own screwdriver, you're basically screwed, pun intended. Needless to say my hand was throbbing when I went to bed and the pain was so intense it woke me up around 7am. I took a Viccodin and soaked my hand in hot water. It felt much better after that, but I think it inflamed my carpal tunnel. After hearing this, my dad bought me an electric screwdriver. December 5th, 2007: My Birthday Root Canal I had an emergency root canal today. My fifth one. It was much more painful than the last four and lasted well over an hour. I'm very sore right now, waiting for the Viccodin to kick in so I can crash for the night. Today really sucked ass. Oh, and did I mention... it's my birthday today? November 23rd, 2007: Thanksgiving One year we told my uncle to bring a salad and he brought a head of lettuce, a tomato, and a cucumber still in the grocery bag. This year I called my relatives ahead of time telling them exactly what to bring and how to bring it. I was impressed. Every dish was absolutely delicious, some beyond our expectations. Even the green salad my uncle brought had slices of radishes and avocado in it. My older sister brought a new dish, which turned out to be surprisingly good. And the home-baked pies that my cousin brought were just awesome. I was put on the spot this year to say grace. To buy time I joked saying, "let us live and thrive, Kaiser Permanente." I stuttered of course so some didn't get in on the joke. I can't recall what I said exactly. I know I ended with "...and everyday, and every year, together, and as a family, ...and love, amen." My niece started laughing at me, which was expected from her since she laughs at the air. Then my drunken aunt retold an embarrassing story of me learning to say "bob" while bouncing at a baby. After hearing several times, "oh come on and do it," I gulped down the last of my Bailey's and did it. They all thought it was hilarious. I pretty much passed out after dinner considering I filled up on chips and dip before hand. Damn those salty ridges and onion dip!! When I woke the next morning I felt like a beached whale washed ashore that couldn't crawl back to the water. Now I'm just trying to take it easy until Christmas Eve. October 4th, 2007: Funny Driving Story It was Monday morning and I woke up really late for work. I hurried, got dressed and left my house. I drove down the street to find a lot more morning traffic than usual. I slowly inched my way down three blocks in the bumper to bumper traffic and found there was a marathon of runners blocking all the major streets. I detoured around the block and was directed by traffic police back to where I was. I was so mad. I was already very late for work and I'd gotten nowhere. I went a different way and was directed onto the freeway. I'm not familiar with freeways, but I had no choice. I kept driving until I reached an exit. It landed me in the middle of a city that was far out of my way from work. I felt like I'd never get to work, let alone on time. I found my way back and continued driving towards my work. I guess I should have called in to let them know I was late, but I figured I'd take my chances, hoping nobody would notice my extreme tardiness. I pulled into the driveway almost an hour late for work. I saw that my boss wasn't there so I was relieved. Then I noticed that nobody was there and I started laughing my ass off... It was Labor day. May 2nd, 2007: Drug Overdose I accidentally overdosed on pain medication and became really sick. The doctor had me draw blood to test for liver damage as a precaution. I misread the label and I took well over twice the recommended dosage. I was horribly sick and kept on dry heaving the whole day! I'm fine now, but I wound up throwing out all my expired prescriptions because of that. April 22nd, 2007: COWS LIE!!! I recently came to the conclusion that I'm lactose intolerant, but I really love milk. Then I saw this commercial for Silk, soy milk. The cow said it tastes just like real milk. I figured he should know, being a cow and all. So, I bought it. COWS LIE!!! Do not trust cows on tv. It tasted like ass! Ass I tell you! ASS!!! April 8th, 2007: Mouse at Gigante Market I saw a mouse at Gigante in the produce section Friday night. You know the wall of produce they have in every market? Well, along the floor there are long black strips of rubber molding and where two strips meet, one piece was pulled out and that was the mouse hole. It came out of the hole, looked at me and then scurried back in. Then I forgot what the hell I was getting and ran out of there. It was a cute mouse, not a big scary rat, but it made me wonder what else will scurry out from that hole. It's so ironic because right before I went there I searched online for a local Gigante nearby and I noticed a review under the location I went to that said, "ghetto but clean." So, afterwards when I came home I wrote a little review myself saying, "I saw a mouse in the produce section." February 3rd, 2007: Jeremy from the Fourth Grade So, I was looking at an old friend's myspace page and saw a familiar face on her friend's list. I couldn't believe it! It was Jeremy from the fourth grade. We sat next to each other and goofed off a lot in class. He showed me how to draw bark on a tree. However, I got a lot of grief from other kids for just talking to him. It seemed like I was the only one who didn't hate him. And then I stabbed him. No really, one day I stabbed him with a pencil in his leg. I didn't mean to hurt him, but I did. That was one sharp pencil, if you ask me. I even forgot why I stabbed him. I felt so bad because I became what my friends were to him and I failed as a friend. He never spoke to me again. I always wanted to apologize, but he had moved far away shortly after and all I heard was that he turned out to be gay. And so there I was, 17 years later, at the computer looking at his icon on my friend's myspace page. Needless to say, I clicked on it, messaged him, and apologized. Jeremy messaged me back saying he still has the scar on his leg, but had forgotten who had stabbed him. I felt pretty bad for scarring the guy. December 29th, 2006: Psycho Bitch Returns My ex's psycho girlfriend emailed me today to gloat about their official engagement. I bet she'll email me once they're married just to shove the knife in further. I was hoping by setting my myspace to private and blocking her, I could prevent this from happening, but I was wrong. She has no right to tell me anything. She had plastered my information all over the web saying shit about me, before she even knew me. I wound up having dozens of threatening crank callers telling me to die. Then after months of harrassment I got one crank caller to tell me where he got my number. He helped me discover that not only that it was her, but she had done this to another girl as well. I went to the cops, but they said there was nothing they could do. So, I changed my phone numbers and hid from the world. December 12th, 2006: The Foo Fighters Brian and I went to the KROQ Christmas Accoustic concert. We missed the first half of the show because KROQ lost our tickets he won on the radio and we had to wait hours in the freezing rain. We did see some bands including AFI and Fall Out Boy. Then the Foo Fighters came on and kicked ass!! I waited years to see them and it was definitely worth the wait!! November 25th, 2006: In Memory of Bren A dear friend of mine, Bren, passed away from a long battle with cancer this week. She was like a mom who watched over us at Firebird's. I never knew her age, but I do know she was too young to be taken from us. She was very kind and people a chance when others didn't and tried to end disputes so we all got along. She was funny and was always there with advice when we needed her most. She will be missed. November 19th, 2006: The Red Folder I came across a very old red folder of my comics I drew when I was with my ex during our five year relationship. I gave him doodle drawings of us and our inside jokes nearly everyday when I was at work or school. After he broke my heart I was surprised to find he kept the folder, especially after hearing how he used to bash my drawings and tell people I didn't have any talent. So, I stopped drawing... Until now. I realized looking at the drawings that I didn't suck at all. I have my own unique style and sense of humor, so I'm going to scan them all and post them on my brand new website, krayziefemale.com. |